The Air Near My Fingers

{I couldn't come up with a good title to reference the content, so there may be a string a song titles used. I seem to be slipping into my iPod a lot.}

Things here have been interesting the past few weeks. And I don't think I mean that in a good way.

I have been on an emotional roller coaster for the past six months, easy, and severely disconnected emotionally the past few weeks. Everything in my life has been slowly going down the tubes because of my lack of focus or concern. Therapy is happening, though I find myself dancing around topics and avoiding truth even then. I've gotten very good at ignoring what ails me.

I'll be going to a dr. just to double check "levels" of things I probably haven't even taken into account, just to make sure there isn't something else going on. In my head there is a constant state of confusion that I haven't felt since I was teenager. And that scares the shit out of me.

Amidst all this mental cloudiness I did manage to keep it together enough to join a Roller Derby league, which I have wanted to do for ages and is all sorts of awesome.

My little man is working on sprouting 8 mutherlovin' teeth at the moment (I actually counted), 4 of them being molars. Thankfully they come in so slowly that he has mostly good days.

Now, random pictures I have managed to take:

Why do I always get the plague?

So, after my last post I swiftly and efficiently came down with the flu. Not the stomach flu, thank god, but the flu nevertheless. I have been completely useless and drugged for the past week. I still have a hacking cough.

When I went back to work on Thursday I was chatting with a student who was a confirmed case of N1H1. We compared notes. What I had didn't sound all that different than what he had. I didn't get into to the clinic, so I'll never know. So far, the boys are ok, though Bowie is getting a cold.

So, no knitting, no attempts at sewing, no cleaning, no organizing, no nothing all week. I'm starting to feel grumpy that I still haven't quite put my house together yet. I suppose I have all winter to do that, harumph.

We did cut down a tree that was next to the deck. It was a crabapple tree, and I'm sure it was lovely the week and a half it had blooms in the spring. But, the disgusting squished mess of fallen crabapples on the deck was making DH insane:



Here is before and after:

So now that I have it...

What the hell do I do with it?

MIL gave me a sewing machine and I have been staring at it, overwhelmed and pissy. I don't even know where to start. Any suggestions?

Also, I am getting a chest cold, which makes me more pissy.

Knitting again

Against my better judgement and experience with how my son reacts to me sitting! The horrors! and not paying attention to him, I am going to get knitting again. I have a simple kid's hat pattern and will try to get a few moments here or there to get going on it.

I really wish I was a more competent crafter as it is freakin' hard to learn when you have no free time/alone time or little fingers getting into said projects. I am also trying to scheme a way to learn how to sew. I really want to learn.

But it is a nice excuse to buy lovely, lovely yarns.

And I made an appointment with a psychologist. Because it is about 15 years overdue. We'll see if I stick with it this time.

What we've been up to all summer

Surprisingly, not as much as I thought! We have been sloooooooowly unpacking. I still have a bunch of clothes that are AWOL and a bunch of crap I just assume pitch than put away. With a 2 acre backyard, we couldn't help but play with the boy.

We did paint, though I had crazy respiratory failure that week that required a nebulizer:




We went to the MREA energy fair as we do every year:




Saw Turkeys! in our backyard, which always make me smile. The Turkeys! should be old news by now since they wander into our yard every morning around 6:30 but I just can't get enough of them:



Went to the Kickapoo Country Fair in the most beautiful part of the state:







Spent a lot of time on the farm and other farm related activities:





Went to a lovely wedding:



I didn't want to plaster pictures of the bride (hi K!) all over my blog without her permission, so I thought this picture during her bridal luncheon was appropriate.

I'm sure I have a lot more info to post, but if I don't get my butt moving soon I will be late to work. The boy is still asleep (btw, he takes naps in his own little bed now!) and I need to make lunch today so I freakin' eat something, so I best hop to it.

Update

We are getting internet at Country House next Wednesday. We have been without all summer, though it hasn't helped us since we still have unpacked boxes. Mostly junk we can live without, but my husband is a pack rat.

I'm trying to upload more pics on Flickr as we speak. Country House always has turkeys, so be prepared for lots of roaming turkey pictures.

Once we are connected again more thorough updates. Because I know you are all clamoring!

The sickness that binds us

So, my cold turned into a sinus infection, which then decided to camp out in my lungs a bit. I've been having trouble getting a good, deep breath the past couple of days so I finally went to the doctor. It was my first time on a nebulizer, and they gave me an inhaler. Needless to say, moving things is probably out of the question for a few days, but I may be able to assist in other ways, such as painting. That is the plan for today. Maybe tomorrow we can wrangle enough help to move most of our large furniture and acuatlly sleep there.

Oh and my 30th birthday is on Monday. Still indecisive about that one.